||[Sep. 26th, 2005|03:34 pm]
im really sorry for not posting in a while,i have been so fricken depressed... today i stayed home from school cuz i ddnt feel so great
and i had 2 packs of oatmeal and then tons of chinese food. OH GOOD FOOD FOR WHEN UR SICK! now i feel sick to my stomach but i cant make myself throw up, i wont do it... if it happens it happens. I was busy all weekend.. but yesterday, i didnt feel so good either so we just ordered chinese.
My moms making chili, and if my stomach feels better i will have some of that
i am starting to restrict HEAVILY, like im writing down the only foods i can eat
cereal in the morning (to start metab
and 1 piece of cheese
ok so i guess it isnt too heavily, but i should be good for a while.
if my mom knew that i was ana.. she would get me a personal trainor and a nutritionist. but for now, she's the only one who gets the luxury
plus i dont want a nutritionist
or a personal trainor, he/she would make me eat!!